Young woman was hospitalized after being penet…See more
Young woman was hospitalized after being penet…See more
Feeling angry and defeated
I’ve lived with depression for 23 years and have been hospitalized twice in my youth due to feeling overwhelmed and trapped. Now, at 35, I live alone with my cat, and lately, suicidal ideation has crept back in. Oddly, it’s my cat—and the people I help at work—that keep me going. I work in life-sustaining healthcare, and I try to bring empathy and compassion even in a system that’s cold and overstretched. My patients remind me of resilience, and I feel a sense of purpose being that one kind voice they may hear all day.
I have friends, a job, and no major health issues—yet I feel hollow. After work, I numb out. On days off, I sleep endlessly. I sometimes whisper, “I can always kill myself,” as if that’s a comfort. I feel stuck, like my life is on a loop I can’t escape. I’m not alone in this—many are being crushed under a system that doesn’t care if we live or die. I don’t think life was meant to be this way. And I wish it didn’t feel so impossible.
